Now that we're past the scary stuff, home from the hospital, and have had Max living with us at home for almost two weeks, life is settling down to normal and I have time to focus on other things. Things like what appears to be a large fleshy deflated beach ball attached to my midsection. WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!
I gained 35 pounds during this pregnancy, which is great for me, because I believe I've mentioned before I'd gained 60 with Alex. Sadly, I started this pregnancy 30 pounds heavier than I was when I got pregnant with Alex, so I pretty much ended up the same. I lost 15 pounds just by giving birth, so to get back to pre-Max weight I still need to loose 20 pounds. Then, to get to pre-Alex shape, I need to loose that pesky 30 pounds I couldn't seem to shake for two years. Ugh. I have to loose 50 pounds to just be less fat. Because once I'm at pre-Alex weight, I have at least another 20 pounds to loose to get to where I'll be mildly satisfied with myself. Are you keeping track? That's 70 pounds I have to loose. And you know what? I'll still be fat, just less so. Ugh. It's a good thing John likes 'em curvy!
To be honest, I didn't really try very hard to loose the weight after I had Alex because I knew I'd get pregnant again and just gain it all back, and really, what's the point? Now that I'm done having kids, I can't use that excuse anymore. You know what that means? Project Hot Mom. Since I'm still trying to get a good milk supply, I'm planning on easing into it. For July, I plan to just eat reasonably, nurse on demand and go for a mile to mile and a half (depending on how long the kids let me) walk every day. In August I'll really kick it up a notch. Maybe join a gym and get on a more structured eating plan. My goal is to have lost that 70 pounds by Max's first birthday. Doable I think. I hope!
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