My 5 week notice is half over and I should only have 2 1/2 weeks left of work before I get to be home. I should be on the downhill now, looking forward to playgroups and swimming and trips to the zoo. Instead, the powers that be at my company aren't letting me go easily. In fact, they're downright BEGGING me to stay a few more months.
On one hand, a few more months certainly won't kill me and the extra paychecks will undoubtedly help us out. But on the other hand, I've made my decision. I'm ready to go. I've been so happy the last week or so knowing I only had a couple more weeks before I got to be Alex's full time Mommy. The thought of even just postponing that makes my heart ache.
I still don't know what I'm going to do. Our PM and VP will be in town next week and they've already said they're going to try to convince me to stay on a while longer. It just frustrates me that after the months of agonizing over this decision, I've finally made it, and instead of just respecting it, my company is making what could/should be my last few weeks harder than they have to be. I'm being made to feel guilty for leaving, that the project will fall apart without me (so not true)...when if it were the other way around, and they needed to downsize, they'd kick my ass out without a second thought about how it would affect my life.
So, I think I'm just going to try to avoid people the rest of the week and try not to stress about meeting with them next week. I really need to decide what I can live with, and I don't want to be pressured into something that will just make me miserable. Because no amount of money is worth that anymore. When I think about being a stay-at-home mom, even though we'll be broke, I see a very bright future. And I'm ready to get started already!
Only you know what the right decision is for you. Don't be afraid to make it.
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