Crush

I've got a crush on someone. Just typing that makes me feel 13 all over again. But, it's true. I'm 31 years old and I have a crush.

It's John.  Yep. I have a crush on my husband.  Isn't that cool?

I didn't know that could happen.  I mean I LOVE John. I've loved John for seven years and we've got an awesome marriage.  We're happier than I thought married people could be.  We'd settled into this really comfortable routine.  Things were good, they stayed good.  We were happy and comfortable and in love.  But, something's happened in the last couple of months. I feel all a twitter about him again. Reminiscent of the days when we were dating, I'd spend the night at his place and we'd stay up all night cuddling and talking and, well, not talking, if you know what I mean *wink wink*.  We were falling in love and it was new and exciting and fun. 

And here we are, seven and a half years later and I'm feeling that way again.  We're cuddling and talking and not talking, and let me tell you, I didn't know that the not talking could be this good after two kids.  But I could not talk to him EVERY NIGHT ALL NIGHT LONG.  It's the best not talking I've ever had in my life.

I wonder if I'm falling in love with the man he's become.  He's different now than he was in the beginning.  He's more responsible, he's a father, he's experienced moments of great happiness and heartbreaking tragedy.  It's changed him, he's a different guy.  Could it be that's why I'm feeling like this again? 

I suppose it doesn't matter. If you get to fall in love with the man of your dreams again, don't second guess it, just enjoy it.