Looking good

We had our first doctor appointment for the pregnancy this morning.  I asked John to come with me because, frankly, I'm a nervous wreck when I'm pregnant.  I can't help but imagine all manner of horrible things being wrong with the baby, if there is a baby at all.  I know better than to do this.  It serves no purpose other than to make me stress out, but I do it anyway.  I was like this when I was pregnant with Alex too.  Interestingly, our first pregnancy, the one I miscarried, I was cool as can be.  Which made it all the more shocking to have it end like it did.

So we're in the waiting room and I'm trying to fill out some paperwork, and my hands are shaking.  I can't remember any answers to the questions on the form.  I can't remember how much Alex weighed when he was born, or what insurance I have.  What's my middle initial again?  Finally we're called in and led to the ultrasound room.  We're told I don't need to have an internal exam and John breathes a sigh of relief that he doesn't have to witness anyone poking around my nethers for a few more months.

As soon as the ultrasound probe touches my stomach, we see the baby immediately.  It's wiggling it's little arms and legs and it actually looks like a tiny miniature baby. This is a stark contrast to Alex who at his 10 week ultrasound made absolutely no movement whatsoever.  Alex looked like a little blob of gum with a flashing white dot for a heart.  We couldn't tell his head from his butt at 10 weeks.  This baby, with the waving and kicking, it was obvious.  Any worries or concerns about this pregnancy were instantly washed away.  Clearly, this kid, it's gonna be just fine.  Though, as my mom pointed out, if it's this hyper in utero, we're in serious trouble when it's a toddler!  And I thought I had my hands full with Alex!

Our official due date is June 16th.  John's excited about the prospect of sharing his birthday (June 17th) with his youngest child.  I'm obviously thrilled to know that I've got a real live (and kicking!) baby growing in there.  Even though I've been so sick, and to be honest, wondering why in the world I did this again on purpose, now, I'm excited.  I remember now why it's worth it.