I admit, I haven't really tried that hard to loose my pregnancy weight. (Ok, almost two years later, it can't really be called pregnancy weight anymore, but humor me ok) I lost 30 pounds about five minutes after I had Alex, and I guess I've just been hanging on to this other 30 pounds as a souvenir. Luckily, I haven't gained a single pound in the almost two years since he was born, which is pretty much a miracle given the fact that I really, really like ice cream sandwiches. I do walk about 2 miles every day, I've stopped going to the gym because it's just too nice outside not to take advantage of it, which is probably why I've maintained my current weight.
I've tried several times to start dieting only to fail, more times than I'd like to admit, only half way through the first day. I don't have any real incentive to loose weight right now, so I think that's why I've got little to no motivation to do what it takes to get in shape. Despite the fact that I am undeniably overweight, I am still a good 50 pounds less than my heaviest (at the age of 22), so I don't feel all that bad about it. John seems to be plenty attracted to me, and according to my doctor, I'm "boringly healthy". Perfect blood pressure, low cholesterol... never once mentioning my weight. Aside from being jigglier than I'd like, my weight doesn't seem to have much, if any, affect on my life. So why diet? I don't know. I think I'm supposed to feel bad about myself at this weight, even though I don't really. I think I'm supposed to want to get thinner. Problem is, dieting is a huge commitment and it's hard to do if you don't really care about it. So, I'm trying to care. I'm trying to find some incentive to want to skip dessert and pump up my exercise regimen. Here are a few ideas:
- I don't want to go into another pregnancy with old pregnancy weight. I want to start fresh and gain brand new shiny pounds for the next baby.
- I have a closet full of clothes two sizes smaller than my current size. They are cuter clothes than I have now. I'd really like to be able to wear them this fall.
- If I'm on a diet, it's easier for John to diet and he really wants to loose weight
- It'll be nice to get to a weight that is reasonable, comfortable and maintainable so that I don't have to go through this dieting shit anymore.
And, that's all I've got really. Maybe it'll be enough. I'm going to start tomorrow. My plan is simple, burn more calories than I take in. I'll be attempting this by continuing my morning walks with Alex five days a week and watching my calorie intake (I plan to use a system simliar to WW Flex Points).
I don't want this to become a diet blog, but I will probably post a weekly update, if only for accountability purposes. Wish me luck!
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