Crazy

Have you ever had someone say something, and at the time, you thought it best to just let it go.  But you don't acutally let it go, you let it sit and fester and eat at you, and then the next time you see that person they say something else, that, if you weren't already worked up about the thing they said last time, you might easily let it go, but this time it really irks you.

But you still don't say anything to that person, because, really, you should just let it go, but you still don't.  And one day you find yourself in the car, having a perfectly pleasant conversation with your husband when, out of the blue, you verbally ejaculate all over him about this person and what they said to make you mad.  And even though you know you should really just shut up about it, you don't. You keep going and going. All the while thinking to yourself SHUT UP! YOU SOUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON!  And you look at your husband, who is now trying to avoid direct eye contact with you, and you really want to just shut up already.  But it's too late, the floodgates have opened and now you're talking about things this person said to you five years ago, and how maybe you're really mad about it because of your relationship with your mother (even though the person in question has nothing at all to do with your mother, and neither does the thing they originally said to piss you off).

And then your husband says "You're talking like a crazy person"

Which of course is the worst thing you can say to a crazy person, because now he's on their side of course, and agrees with all the horrible things this person has ever said to you. Which, even as you're accusing him of this, you know isn't true, but for some reason, your mouth won't stop blabbing.

By the time you get home you hate your husband, the person who started all of this, and for some reason, that girl he wanted to date in high school, because, well, why not.

In the end, I admitted to John that I know I was acting crazy and asked if he could forgive me.  And John said "Of course I do Honey, I love you.  Crazy and all."